life with pidc frens

i wanted to post all the pics tat i've taken since at KLIA but couldn't make use of my time. it's a bit out of heat to post all these pics now but, well, sharing is always the best.

taken b4 departed for india

my same bday fren

catcha!

way to international departure hall, uhu~

a staircase outside my room

old thing is pretty.

my first ping pong bat

lois so yeng

li gu! i got ur pic!

hong er is so cute

i really need to go back to my pre-planned time table, which is...make use of every single day for studying, jogging, photography, letter writing, novel reading... i think this is the reason y i couldn't get a well slumber every afternoon n night, i'm feeling sorry for my empty soul.

family in kl

days in kl before i departed for india. we were having a great time, friends and family IS always the greatest thing. they all enjoyed with the 50mm lens, i told pung kim, 'it makes u moving in the pic, can u see it?' but he said, 'well, it's moving meh?' anyway, i feel super happy with my new dslr, hope i can shoot more in india too.

going to watch 10,000 bc

so sad din focus well but i love her innocent look

ice kacang!

we were on a taxi to midvalley

first pic of qiu qiu in my cam

i cant stand it! keep it clean eh..

it's such a memorable..

when i had no models at home

my family in kl

tat's she.

goot posture lowen!

shoot from 4th floor of sunway apartment hostel

ppl say i look younger than her

blur~~~~

she's so photogenic, isn't she?

she seldom dream but the way she dreams is pretty kan.

午雨

此时此刻，我听着claudia's theme，一面冥想着小房间的那扇绿色沙窗帘，在下雨的时分里，我看不见未来的样子。。时间并没有停留在那一刻，我也不可能一直待在那个温室里，我离夫人和爸爸的影子越来越远。。越来越模糊。我很担心，夫人思念我们的痛苦。那个家，一年里，只有几次才有我和妹妹的笑声和吵闹声。

我们长大了，父母也老了。以后再一家团聚时不知会是怎样的一个情景。有一天晚上临睡前，我问夫人，“老了的感觉是怎样的？” 夫人说，“嗯。。老了的感觉啊。。。就是比较会想很多东西，会很想捉住一样东西。但是了解留不住任何东西之后，就比较能放下。”

这次的返归，使我心酸不少。曾经是那么开心的一段日子很快又结束了。

我很喜欢下雨的午后，可是会让我想起孤单的我，我不喜欢这种感觉。

如今，我知道再多的幻想，只会让我失去更多快乐的时光。身为一个有使命的人，我不应该再原地踏步。不应该再想这么多。

happy valentine

i think i had drawn the wrong decision. when u did something rash n stupid at the blur moment, u'd deeply regret when u looked back.

did i look stupid that time?

well, forget bout it.

felt so happy to see hong er's cute look when he got the surprise gift from us. although he din really show much how surprise it was, i knew he was very happy with the big-hug-gable bear, doesn't it look just alike with him? ngek ngek..

i'm thinking back the moment i spent the valentine with mok.. frankly speaking, i think we never have a proper V day b4. last year i was in still in kl n he was in kk, this year i'm in india he's in sg.

am i trying to live against my destiny? don ever oh.

mom said, "focus on study".
aunty told me, "if u don take the decision now, u'll hurt him in the future."
min ren asked me, "y u still don wanna let go?"
jack said, "那就给它继续烂下去吧."
hong er said, "ng de ng diu."

don wanna think so much now, just wanna live my life to the fullest. therefore, let's put away this issue. or u can say i'm escaping the problem, whatever.

found another band to be included into my favourite artists list, it's Incubus. i used to listen to some songs from it last time but dunno who sang it until i opened my music files this morning n the song just pop up from the player n caught my ears. their 'love hurts' quite nice. i love guitar so much! arghh...where's my michelle branch?? where's my keane??

okay, go back to my DM.. uhu~

Happy Valentine to Everyone

考试前后

考完 theory final 已经有两三天了。 说一说考试前后的我。。

roommate 说她重来没有看见我烦恼的样子，除了刚睡完午觉的时候。老实说，其实我是有紧张和压力的哦，最好的证明就是我的肩膀上会贴上 salonpas，要不然就会看到我整天在 library，我是有读书的。

这次的考试，放最多努力的科目是在 anatomy。没有想到选到的 topic 不小心就这样在考卷纸 doink 出来了！上天慈悲，要不是我在 library 遇到 kebo男我可能写不出 air sinus 那篇 essay。缘分和机缘是非常难得的东西，一切都是那么地擦身而过。我相信 "when u want something, the world will conspire to help u achieve it".

去考试前，我真的真的很怕。。。。很怕会半途便便。这是我从小到大最敏感的事。每次一要考很重要的考试，或坐长途 bas 的时候，都会想来想去，就是那种越想越会发生的，比如 mm mmm 的事。三年级时候有一次考试前，我很怕突然肚子痛，然后不久果然肚子痛起来了。那时没有厕纸，考卷又快派下来了，结果就撕了几张练习簿的纸冲去课室后面的 longkang mm mmm.... 我就是这样活到现在。来了 india 也是这样，有一次坐长途 bas 从 bangalore 回 salem 的时候，在车里就一直想着，等下千万不要乱来哦。。。。。 后来，就。。。竟然在路边 mm mmm! 我唯一自豪的一次，就是坐 lcct bas 送 alex 去机场的时候，没有想到 mm mmm 的事，因为太伤心了！

从 UPSR 开始，我就会想考试期间我会不会出水痘。到了 PMR, SPM, UEC，A level(忘了有没有，因为那年伤心过渡)，甚至是现在的 uni exam 我还是会这样想。现在回想起来，原来 law of attraction 是这么一回事 。。。"wat u think will attract wat u want".

实在是扯太远了。。。

dm 和 physio 是我 crap 到最多的两份。希望是可以 pass 的 ;) 我们 3rd batch 全部一定要一起给它 pass 掉。。 如果有一个人离开了，唉。。。想都不敢想。

这几天没有考试的日子真是放纵到极点，不是 online 就是看戏看到早上5点。颓废的人生呀。。讲真，有哪一次是没有放纵自己的时候？太不在乎的人，还是懒散的人？

第一次在国外庆祝农历新年，感觉是不错的。不知做么，每次ｒｏｏｍｍａｔｅ讲她不喜欢在这里庆祝时我一直要强调这一点。昨晚忙了一整天，从选菜切菜开始，越煮越火滚，还不经意地动怒了，我又起心动念了！回想起，真是后悔。林姑终于被发现发脾气的样子了！

到什么时候，才能改变自己的坏习惯。很不喜欢什么都埋藏在心里的。。可是我做不到　ｂｉｌｉｂａｌａ．．还是学习中庸之道吧。

明天是ｐｒａｃｔｉｃａｌ哦。。我总没ｄｕ４书呖！

gain time

ling-gu arose late this morning, so she din manage to accomplish the physio practical model exam.

guiltiness, regret, self-condemnation, lamentation, uneasiness, qualm.....have soaked me in.

staring at the hair clip on my laptop, it was such a nice scene to be caught. thus i took out my camera from the wardrobe n started to SNAP! it was so enjoyable using macro mode, from tiny one to medium one. finally i could apprehend the significances in adjusting the aperture n shutter speed.

here are some master pieces of the talented ling-gu, hahaha...


borrowed this from carmen, i like the little-but-not-noisy bells. got indian feeL?


hair clip from san nv, love it so much. best for weak & easy-loss hair.


calendar from ting Er!


calendar for carmen by me. got san nv's feel lar..haha! oh i'm influenced by u finally!


my little bear, bought in klcc with qiu qiu n li fong. miss them so much.

i wish i can repeat my horrible smile in the canteen's wash room with san nv, li gu n hong er again.
this interpret that, everything tat we see is fake, unreal n spurious. the genuine one is? our real soul
a bonanza from shien juin, haha.
hong er, the jelly will not disintegrate de la... u see!
彩虹天堂。
chocolate from GLoria! hurray! cram cram cram!

mickey mp3 from korea!! hurray! i have new mp3 some more is disney version!

DM paper

i used my glassware to cook noodles last night. i forgot that the glass will also exhibit expansion n contraction based on thermal induction. i removed the very hot glassware from the hotplate n put on the cold aluminium pantry table.."CRA...CK!" i really heard the cracking sound, it sounded cracking! quickly i got another bowl for my noodles before the glassware totally cracked. then i dumped my kristy-smelled glassware into the dustbin! i dumped it! it had accompanied my for months n i just dumped it in such a way.... "PLANK PLANK!" it was shattered into pieces..

taciturn.

this phenomenon reminded me bout the accident on a housewife in the 'final destination'. in the movie, she used a hot porcelain cup n got some cold water from the tap, she din realize the cup was cracking while she was dealing with her pc, the water leaked out from the fissure of the cup n dropped on the current-running monitor, next the pc burnt out, she then struggling around the kitchen looking for cloth wiper. next, she accidentally fell down n pulled along the knives on the table. the knives stabbed her! her destiny just ended like this. treacherously.

my roommate asked my to study hard therefore she said tat she'd accompanied me studying till late night. but i need to stay in room cannot lepak anywhere. me then spending most of the time online-chatting with frens who were located in domes nearby. san nv said she was eating chocolate. ppl who freak of choc like me was crazed for it, then san nv walked from her dome n delivered a bar of toblerone for me! so touching oh.. (ps:the toblerone is herself one, not from the secret person oh ;p) i crammed the whole choc! in yore, i could finished half of the largest toblerone (400g) at once ^^ tat's y i'm so heavy now.

i was blanked with DM paper when i read the essay n short note questions. wat the cold questions they gave.. i admonished myself, "if u don want to write u can go back to ur hostel now. if not, stay n write!!" although i dunno wat to write, bluffing might help me to score marks. so the whole papers are fulled of CRABS.

i just understood y our camaraderie is getting shallower. becoz i can never withstand the crank n camouflage of u.

oh feelings

we went to salem castle at the night of new year. not sure how many of us but there were US, a troop of half-going-mature ppl.

mr wil-er-son strongly suggested tat all the bloggers here must post their complaints bout the restaurant in the blog n we can post our comments on each other's blog, to shoot the lousiest restaurant!

okay, wat's wrong with salem castle? "do not judge a book by its cover." wat we saw from outside of the hotel was nice, but when we walked into the restaurant....

1. y the saturation of light like tat? show 5 fingers see only 3. so DISMAL!
2. we could see some STAIN n hangover left on the back side of table cloth.
3. the menu was TORN.
4. lists on the menu were nothing different with KUMARAN.
5. the service took u a hundred YEARS.
6. they served the vegetarians real MEAT!
7. the disinclination's dishes were fulled of NaCl n condiment! they want to hazard our kidneys!
8. we need a hundred years to get our BILLS.
9. they had BRAIN CONCUSSION in billing, we might have disbursed the extra.

so, whoever decide to go there must CONTEMPLATE twice oh!

there's still left one more day to study, ayisshh...wat was i doing these few weeks? i just know tat i'm addicted to san nv's room, if one day din go to their room sure feel awkward d. just don understand, good atmosphere? but my room is cleaner n more tidy wor, hahaha.

i really cant get myself into the text books! where is my cerebral cortex? i'm disoriented!

just had a hair-cut by bin er, first time let fren to cut my hair, n it was also the first time bin er cut gal's hair. i just love to take risk! yo risky rocks! not bad the hair cut, looked more 淑女 liao. haha.

we were arguing bout maturity in 6B during dinner. there's no a standard for maturity, this is wat hong er said. i cannot deny, but i have to agree that there's a level of maturity. everyone has diff level of maturity. is maturity related with personalities? or, do personalities affect the level of maturity of a person? i think we can write a dissertation on this topic edi, haha.

WHEN U WANT SOMETHING, DON DISSIMULATE THAT U DON WANT.

i don like sharing food with u....!(only li gu understand)

'the end of august' by Yanni is so nice.....

how to be mature?

so bad my half-the-way post was shut down. i cant remember wat i've written. so, i'd better write another topic.

woke up at 9 something this morning, slept back at 10am like tat after taking bfast. i seldom sleep back if i woke up late in the morning, then i had a lot of 'morning-mare' until 1pm. i hate dreaming!! i don want to dream during slumber!

WAT U DREAM REFLEX WAT U ARE.

really have no idea how to get back my study mood. i'm being so lazy since months ago, until my roommate nag me to study. i really dislike the person like me.

went to play table tennis with arthur them again this afternoon. i'm still the lousiest player, haha. really have no confident with myself.

i'm thinking, how to be a mature one? here are some of my side of views, to be a mature one, u...

1. do not get angry easily over a matter.
2. prepare to forgive other.
3. do not gossip.
4. have to be humour despite being sarcastic.
5. think out of the box.
6. can handle problem steadily.
7. do not get astonished.
8. do not get depressed easily.
9. think wat is more important.
10.keep secret.
11.do not speak harsh words.
12.love everyone, willing to help.
13.do not make urself drunk.
14.do not show off.
15.acknowledge urself every single moment.

uhmm...i think from the above, i can only do ONE out of the 15! so i still have 14 to go to be a mature person.

i must control my emotion, my love, my thoughts. i cannot simply get depressed or angry, i cannot fall in love with anyone other than him, i cannot think to the negative side. i must get more mature!! be mature!

okay, it's time for cooking now. i'll be back!

oh the clumsy one!

in the morning, tammy's msg woke me up. i almost forgot we got to go to coffee world for group study. coz i slept at very late last night, uhm..sorry is this early morning, i slept at 4:40am! my cells are growing badly soon! tammy, san nv n me went for bfast in canteen. we had poori! tat's the nicest indian food i consider. then we went to coffee world by otto. i was flashing back a lot of past things tat happened to me, it was like watching a movie, a rewinding movie.. i understood y the adults o'wes let their children to see the good sides of them, or, guide to correct one. parenthood is really important. thank u mom n dad. i love u.

wherever my footprints were, i could hardly see those previous dented floor.

LIVING IN THE PRESENT TENSE.

i ordered a cup of apple iced tea as i used to take some sips of it last time n i really liked it. it brings u into tender-sweet time!

we got study a bit, very bit only from anatomy. found tat many things i dunno n i have forgotten. i really need long memory! i'm feeling stressed now, i'm worrying so much bout my final yet 'm wasting time here..!

we got home at 5pm. it's time for ping pong!

ying er, han han, shawn, wilson, shien juin n me went for table tennis this afternoon. it seems like taking part in our routine edi, it's really fun playing table tennis.

i think i'm the worst player among them. but my fortune was there with me, i could hit back the ball nicely without flying up high anymore! feel so proud coupling with shien juin but i o'wes make my partner lose the game.. really don have enough confident myself, i'd be stucked when they started the game. however, feel so happy tat we won in the game! first time i won game in ball de sport!! coz i really have no fate with balls, i'm so scared of them, n i never catch them well in my hand.

shien juin suggested us to play a game. which is, involving all of the players. each of us took the turn around the table, like playing chasing game, u hit the ball when it's ur turn, then after hit the ball successfully, the ppl following by u will take the turn, n u have to go to another station n wait for ur turn. ppl who din manage to hit the ball will be out n at last leave 2 ppl playing, on each place. it came to a very panic situation when u couldn't get urself in the right place to hit the ball in time. and...when i ran to hit the ball, i slipped! and.....i fell on the floor like playing a slow motion movie. it hurt my hip n wrist, luckily i din hit my head on the table, it was so lucky... if not, i'd have ruined my brain n facial nerves.

arghh..there were so much to pai seh about this afternoon in that gym room. next, i screwed up in the game, i ran to the opponent's place n i dunno there just left me n shien juin in the game! next, next, next....i think i've done many pai-seh-ing things today!