a dizzy day

finally the seniors finished their final exam yesterday afternoon, and i couldn't tell anyone how much i envy them! they will continue their 3rd year in Penang PIDC 2 months later and i still have half more year stucked in Salem.. i don mean that i hate this place in fact i like this place quite much maybe i'll even feel hard to leave here next time but i'm just so longing to be like those seniors who take their plane in the coming weekday and wave their hands to their juniors saying something like "see u after 6 months!" or "take care and study hard!" or... i just cant stand the remained 6 months i think.. i want to go back now x_x

i helped those seniors to take their pics with some lecturers like ma'am sudha, sima and monica. actually i don like to be any party's camera man because i'm not professional and i don want ppl to see and think me good in taking pics just because i own a DSLR. i don mind to take pics for others but "empty shell" 空壳子 feeling always fell on me, quite sad at some times actually.. aih! it's all because i'm such a lazy and useless person, never improve myself and waste a lot of time doing nothing. i always tell myself must read and study those photography magazines + some photography skills notes from kak but always ended up with "after today la..", "during weekends la...", "or during holiday la..", etc. i always feel so shame when i read kak's or yipi's blog, i see their photograph skills improved day by day and their pics reflect that i'm still on the beginning point of photography, so sad..

ok, back to the seniors' farewell with lecturers.. i helped them to take some group photos and individual photos with lecturer. i owned 3 cameras at the same time coz ma'am sudha and sima wanted their camera to shoot too. diff camera really have diff wide angles, i am glad that my cam's wide angle is the smallest! it was my first time seeing how child-behaving ma'am sudha was. she chased to apply the cake's cream onto the seniors' faces! they cheered with the lecturers with cups of soft drink and yelled "yummmMMM.........SHENnnnng......!!" at last, before they left the dental material lab, they requested ma'am sudha to announce her classical dismiss quote, "listen everyone, pack up ur things and leave!" the ending was full with laughters and happiness.

she's ma'am sudha.

the class rep presented the lakhsmi sweet to lecturers.

the lecturers prepared some snacks and cake for them.

monica is their fav lecturer.

done by sudha

she made some home desserts. (got pista flavour ah~.~)

yum sheng...!

she showed her dogs i think.

they asked her to repeat the dismiss quote.

manveer also kena.

same to xian hui.

all the way chasing them...

i was so dizzy and not feeling well since yesterday morning, felt like almost fainted when i walked out from li gu's room. after taking pics, i walked back alone.. missed TheGE quite much when walked pass the anapoorani pharmacy, which we always bought ice creams at after lab practicals. felt quite goosebumped when passed by the bridge where tammy used to smell the 'spirit' at ~.~

jane looked for me to chat yesterday afternoon and we looked for andrew and asked for chocolate coz i thought maybe chocolate could kill the dizziness, hehe..

we got ourselves prepared at 7pm and went to ma'am banu's pre-wedding reception. the hall was quite grand compared to last few i went before. the foods were quite nice maybe i was too hungry. as usual, the foods were prepared on a big banana leaf (if not mistaken) and each banana leaf contain 2 parathas, a scoop of fried rice, another scoop of curd rice, some potato chips, gobi 65 and of course plenty of sambal + bla bla paste + bla bla sauce. i ate the fried rice with my left hand and all the local ppl who sat opposite to me kept looking at me weirdly. (coz i use right hand to wash butt one!!)

took quite lot of pics but nothing seem improved in my pics still. i always think that if for another person he or she might make use of the place to take gorgeous pics like ppl normally cant. anyway, i'm going to improve myself from now! we'll see...

taking the van back to hostel was a bit hard time for me coz my dizziness + the foods just eaten made me felt like vomiting. some more felt so darn envy with those seniors they kept on talking bout their feeling after exams and things to do after exam bla bla bla... well, i just kept quite coz if i joined i'd fall into motion sickness.

they dressed up so nice~ in front of the hall.

there were some kids playing in the huge-air-filled "toy".

i was trying to capture the pic of the little boy but suddenly the gal jumped into the frame.

they had live song playing oh~

oops..over-exposure..

just felt the expression of bryan was so funny.
is this considered a candid photograph?

the videographer shoot me n i caught his flares.

i have no idea wat was she doing on the floor with the fruits, perhaps blessing?

dr. warun n his wife dr. monica.

oh finally i appeared!

there's a very long water sink with numerous water tapsssS.

got feel~

a long queue of dinner

he served us sambal

all the kids ran away when they climbed on it.

oh i appeared again!

i dunno they could play!

i was flashing back those moments playing scrabble with TheGE, there were so much fun and upset times. sometime i was very angry and 'gia su' that i had no good cards and lose to him n asked to replay the game again. sometime he changed his cards or checked dictionary secretly, briefly describe, he cheated and 'main busuk'. well, i was glad that sometime i won him! coz his english is so damn good. i'm looking forward his return and play again! shuk ting also played with me before she left for new delhi.

i think this it is the first time i won him, muahaha...

luckily he din found this...

few days ago there was raining cats n dogs. the hostel was flooded! no la...only the plants.

view outside my window

She

i couldn't think of any nice movie to watch yesterday.. then suddenly i heard this "when u say nothing at all" by ronan keating in my playlist.. "notting hill"!

actually i never watch this film yet i know it's very famous, starred by julia roberts, the big mouth and intelligent actress in my impression. i did know this movie when my friend rated the soundtrack (in cassette) of it in 1999 (or 2000 i couldn't remember) to me. it was actually a gift from my late grandma as she gave me RM100 and asked me to buy myself a portable cassette player which i was longing for (i have no idea where is it now...so sad) and a cassette. i kept listening to the soundtrack and repeating some of the songs such as "she", "when u say nothing at all" and musics of the movie. i found out that i could imagine the movie scene even though i never watched it during tat time...haha..

i checked the movie out from www.tudou.com and download it from there (as it's the only way to dl movie).

i watched it finally!

those songs i used to hear till rotten 听到烂 are played in the movie so well! the storyline of the movie is also very smooth and not boring (TheGE used to tell me that this movie is very nice). julia roberts acts as a very famous actress with income of $150 million per film in the "notting hill". she fell in love with a bookshop owner after visited to the bookshop and discovered that the owner was a very kind and simple man that she was longing to be with. she had a lot of difficulties in her relationship she found that that was the only man that she could dependent on. after a chain of conflicts and misunderstandings, they finally got together, and at the scene which the guy pretended as a journalist to ask her whether she'd go back to him again if he knelt down right at there..was quite touching and surprisingly that she then answered another journalist that she'd stay in britain forever ever..

after that, i went to check the biography of julia roberts from wikipedia and just knew that she is the toppest-income-actress in the world! but she's replaced by nicole kidman last year.

here julia robert, anna, asked the guy to love her again after she left him previously. she told him, "i'm just a girl asking a boy to love her..."


Elvis Costello- She

She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day

She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell

She
Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She
May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember till the day I die

She
May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years
Me
I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is

She
She, oh she

love this song quite much~

holiday

finally it's time to cool down from a chain of busy days. i was blaming y i got myself so much things to do n y ppl always asked me to do this n that for them. i remembered last time i cried in front of TheGE when i couldn't stand myself anymore. y am i being so tame and busybody always? y am i being so fond of saying "ok ah...can ah...." and always ignoring the feelings of my loves? however, i've gone through all those tasks given and not been blaming anymore. =D

i'm gonna recall what have i done since last weekend. hong er n me went to buy several vege n fruits in town for steamboat on the day san nv left. actually we wished to have steamboat together with her as a member of 'family' but since she had to leave early so..

after san nv went back to msia, i missed her quite much, i planned to post my feelings in the blog but i had to get my task done first =( (well, i can briefly talk bout my feelings here， haha..) i always think that she's a tough girl. although the way she makes friends is quite un-soft and straight foward, yet she's a friend that u can trust with. i found that the important factor that i can live with them-the-family so well is because i don need to mask myself. san nv always cant stand li gu's n my silly-ness at several times, sometime i do worry that she will stay away from us one day.... but i wont let that happen! bla...

steamboat in my room! hong er said "we had a 不请自来 de friend", haha..

i went to take spared soup from outside n found that there were 2 becoming-dog-puppies sleeping in front of (my neighbour) yee vaa's room. she's really a dog lover.

finally i got myself some times to do the bday cards for siok wun, veng li and michelle. and another greeting card for mom. steal the idea from website as i did for the 'august rush' bday invitation cards.

14 Aug, we had a bday party call the 'august rush' (name from a movie) held for the batchmates born in august. it was the biggest most grand bday party we ever had in the hostel.

the 'august rush' decoration for august babes. it was between block 3 n 7.

the august babes....after had their suits (lab coat + mask + surgery gloves) on. they were going to perform on that night.

continuous laughters from the crowd, cos some of them forgot bout the steps.

should have 007 pose at that time but some of them started to blank...

other than Dj, they organized some live music playings. the pianist is a great pitch-catcher.

carmen brought out the historical-gorgeous-ever cake she made herself and everyone was so surprised.

a close-up of the cake...

ting er dressed the prettiest with her make-up that night.

finally got ppl took pic for me (although i don really like ppl touching my cam). i looked quite slim here (in fact i'm not), haha. yes another pic with TheGE! he felt so kekok with his crown and suit as he's such a low tone 低调 de person =p

each of the dishes had a fairy-taled name to suit the theme of that night.

evan cooked this love boat and it was so famous among all the dishes.

i was finding where got the dish with very little chicken on it... finally i got it.


i didn't get to drink this soup because i was so full that time, but i didn't eat much wat.

quite impressed with myself... hee...☆

the night was windy and the fabrics danced in the wind. with flares some more.

stupid..!

their dance for the closing. i couldn't catch the scene in time n asked them to re-do again.

we were so tired... yet so many plates to wash... yet the next day they were going back to msia....

finally it was time to say goodbye the next afternoon.

i really dislike farewell-ing ppl, though they will come back again, cos the feeling of looking-forward-from is quite torturing and irritating.

i dl some entertainment programs to watch right after they left. i thought it could kill the emptiness who know it made me feel more empty. :S

i try not to miss him so much, otherwise i'll have a bad holiday. but after he left, i started to think nonsense again...

after they went back... the hostel fall into a deep silence! i'm being so aimless these few days.
every morning wake up with no aims... and i dream a lot of stupid stuff in every nap.

i miss him again.

the internet connection in hotel become faster since only few ppl left at here. i think it'll become even faster few days later when the rest visit to New Delhi and the seniors go back to msia after their final :..(

finally i found the nice song played in the movie 'jerry maguire' today. the secret garden sung by bruce springsteen is so romantic n soothing. but it keeps reminding my those moments watching movies with TheGE.

okay, start from tomolo i must make use of my holiday..

[ ] i must finish all the record books,
[ ] i must read through all the taught chapters,
[ ] i must read some novels and magazines,
[ ] i must improve my photography skills,
[ ] i must eat healthy,
[ ] i must jog,
[ ] i must sleep less.

mimi~

the happy little kid

today is a good day! it's not just because of saturday, the most to be mentioned is my mood is good. =D

Happiness is something like....

having some bars of dark chocolates, or...

capturing some beautiful smiles, or...

stuffing ur stomach with a heavy breakfast, or....

laughing in the sky, or...

playing fireworks with ur frens, or...

looking how ppl appreciate each other, or...

sharing the same piece of cake with someone, or...

celebrating ur roommate's bday, etc.

there're so many things to be happy with. jot them down n they'll remind u how happiness works.

幼稚园的臭小孩

今天心情有点down，好像是因为昨晚没有睡好，加上一早出来就看见不想看到的人的脸色。总之，我还是没有办法理智地控制情绪。为什么她可以一下子对你很好，一下子对你这样冷淡，时常让我不受控制地在后面讲她的坏话。

渐渐地，我承认了自己的幼稚。

因为。。。。
幼稚的我，整天只会胡思乱想。

习惯被蛮多人认为是懒惰，不认真，不实际的我今天突然觉得这些眼光们很刺痛。本以为装疯卖傻是我的强项，其实这只是不切实际的大智若愚。当时我快要哭了~ (如果不需要看patho slide的话)

刚刚在珊女的blog看到这段熟悉的话，因为之前借了the secret给她，没有想到目前我也很需要鼓励和正面的想法。

"The reason you have to love YOU is because it is impossible to feel good if you don't love YOU. When you feel bad about yourself, you are blocking all the love and all the good that the Universe has for you."

我总是在清醒后又矛盾，矛盾后又清醒。今天和佛友在共修念经的时候，我一直想着要成为一个稳重的人，是很不容易的事情。因为我真是凡人中的凡人。如果你打我骂我讲我不理我，我一定会变成像大便一样的人，我一定整天在想自己有多么的糟糕。

anniversary

today is our 3rd month anniversary. as planned, it's the baskin robbin day. (argh..how come i always feel so hard to write the first paragraph of every blog!)

in the beautiful morning i asked carmen to teach me how to make a pancake. the basic things i knew was only mixing powder, water, eggs and sugar but didn't really know the actual consistency of the mixture. when carmen told me that i need to make the mixture thicker i kept arguing that a thinner mixture would be nicer. when i tried to fry the first few one, i found that i couldn't make them looked aesthetic! i was doubting my concept while tried to accept carmen's one, thus, she helped me to thicken the mixture. i felt so easy to fry afterwards. then carmen implied the chinese phrase on me, "tu la, i told u dy, 不听老人言，吃亏在眼前". well, i admit that sometime my stubbornness kills me. anyway, i was so happy that i've made something that suit shien-juin-who-calls-himself-the greatest-emperor his stomach, and it was such a pleasure to see his sweetie smiling face while having pancakes. =)

after pancakes, we went to town to have our Baskin Robbin day.

it tasted nice though it didn't look good. we had it with honey and vanila syrup. shien juin TGE accidentally spilled his honey over my head! we were watching 'fight club' and we stopped eating when we saw the part that the men who steal human's fat(from liposuction) from medical department accidentally scratched the plastic beg and all the thick lipids and blood squeezed out.

this is the card which TGE put on my desk secretly while i was frying pancakes. there is a rose bookmarked in between the pages.

the biggest paper rose that he made for me. but that cannot replace 50 small paper roses still la! anyway, i really appreciate wat he had done for me. a little action will earn much much point from me, because i know it's sincere.

bought this little globe from odyssey. actually i wished to have a globe since years ago but couldn't get a cheap one. this small size globe is just suitable to be placed on my desk and it cost only Rs50=RM4++

found this scrabble mini-cards in odyssey. i wished to have a scrabble set since i played it in IS few years ago. the cards are tiny and pretty. i'm going to force my frens to play with me soon!

i chose the left one for him and he chose the right one for me.

after we ordered our dinner in green park, we went to nilgiris, a new supermarket that TGE was so desperate to pay a foods shopping at. before we went there, we saw some balloons sold on the roadside. there were some love-shape balloons tied stick-like yellow balloon, so that u can hold the balloon with its stick. i was so thick face i asked TGE to buy one for me (being acting so crazy these few weeks). when we were in a toy shop, the stick suddenly burst and left the balloon became like this......

.....yeah it became like this... i felt so damn sad and full of dunno-how-come-ah-s. and then, when we were on the way back to hostel, we heard another pop sound.

all the remaining yellow balloon gone and left only the love-shape balloon. TGE kept consoling me that it's ok as long as the love-shape balloon still there when i was really sad bout wat had happened.

oh yeah finally we went to have our important date in baskin robbin ice cream shop in santham complex. although the place is really small, it's a place which full of wonderful memories with TGE.

we had triple scoops of ice cream, to which were very-berry-strawberry, lichie and my fav dark chocolate.

on this special day, i really appreciate that fate has been arranged as so i can meet u and find u as my very special one.

love u sweetheart~