feb baby

Feb

----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.

Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
Freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
Aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
But rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
Inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

yes i'm intelligent!

yes i'm romantic on the inside.

yes i am attractive!

yes i love making friends!

yes i'm ambitious!!

blablabla....

sorry it's just a boring post.

recall

i'm in such a weird mood to post some of my previous previous pics before i come to india. (should i add some sentences before this? not good in blogging, anyway ~.~)

i found that my face used to be so smooth compared to WAT i'm having now. pimples, blackheads, pores, dead skin, freckle, etc... am i aging ah? i cant accept that! y ya? it's because of the hard water here, must be. well, it's quite nice to review some old pictures in an aimless sunday afternoon.

i couldn't recall when did i take this picture but the thing i want to tell is i'm still wearing that farting-fish-t-shirt now which is annoying to someone's vision.

see how was my face being so smooth like milk and pink like monkey's butt.

on my 21st bday. no big party no balloons no feast but only cheers!
i like my bday to be so not important.


sis was leaving again to kl. she used to be a businesswoman oh.

we were on a parachute in pulau sapi my favourite island.

after those days, i went to kl.... which had affected my life so much.

it was on pumpkin's bday. that beg is with me still.

i was the leader of the foolishnesses.

y the colour is so nice ah?

cheers for the foolishnesses!

supper in secret recipe. when i stayed in tmn connaught.

my foolish roommate lowen the siu mang kai!

couldn't help!

it was non-of-anyone's bday but it was the foolish day.

when fitting room become our show time.

i'm the queen!

pumpkin always cant get rid of his red beans!

CNY card made for my dentist the boss.

had the family day with my boss, hear family and other colleagues.

the dentist's daughter. who always played with me when i was working at the reception.
couldn't recognise whether i was a baby-sitter or else.

when she n me had nothing to do?

working in such a place was so streeful and challenging. the dentist faced various kind of patients everyday. from the very young one to the very old one. from the very kind one to the very fussy one. i disliked doing suction but it was wat an assistant should do.


working with siti and kakak was just harmony.


when we had nothing to do again...

when the foolishness came back again.


roomies~~~ miss all those days when we were cooking, watching dramas, doing assignments together. wat would it be if i never leave u guys?

pizza hut in tmn connaught is the most beautiful one. and that was my last time having pizza there.

after they knew i decided to quit UCSI and leave for PIDC...

y this sign become so popular har?

luckily my face was not so big. otherwise i wont post it up here, hehehehe..

well, i was not studying at all in kl. online freak!!

my best fren chou qiu (name i gave). before i left for india... we were so young.

i didn't look like 21, right? hai luo hai luo restaurant~~

my sis got her hair permed that day.

well, i thought i'd be leaving for india the next day who knows the agent told me the wrong date of departure and i was informed only after i reached KLIA, which was at 5am!

and finally we were really leaving for india. see we looked? evan said i was slim before i came here and now i'm.....plump like hell.

改变

妹仔说舅舅搬家了
我有点舍不得那里
除了。。。。。。。。
以前减肥时在公寓楼下跑圈爬楼梯
傍晚偷骑摆在某个门口的脚踏车
每天早上和小杰一起喝珍珠奶茶配汉堡
或者吃舅舅煮的剩菜配快熟面
或者到路边摊吃素蚵面线加糯米团
那里最让我舍不得的。。
是外婆房间里的味道
还有佣人阿水彩绘的壁画
妹仔也许一点都不曾察觉这一切
我却如此执著每一个角落
难道我都不喜欢改变吗？

哎，谁说我不喜欢改变。
房间里的东西我最爱摆设
墙壁上贴的东西可以换来换去
还有什么。。。。呢。。
朋友说我换男朋友也很厉害
我不能否认但是我不是故意的

好像渐渐越来越少想要改变的
目前穿了超过四年的休闲鞋和手表
依然那样耐看好穿
还有从跟罗文一起住穿的拖鞋
我喜欢它脱色的颜色
仔细观察我还用着几年前的笔仔和highlight pen
还有！我还用着自小抱的抱枕及毛巾
还有还有！我的好朋友还是他们
没有变没有变！我还是很贪吃
我还是很双从性格很爱搞自闭
很爱show off很爱乱讲话的人
喜欢gossip的习惯一点都没变
还是喜欢last minute做东西
依旧爱乱吼乱叫不学习斯文点
要不然喜欢假假扮斯文扮客气
你知不知道你还是多么的幼稚
哈。。。林敬慈！你竟然还有酱多没有改变到

好晒厉啊！clap*

sot。。。我竟然打开书本然后在这里crap了好多。但是我终于blog something here，是值得开心。

为什么一个人会容易陷入低潮呢？
我知道我知道！
因为他没有大爱的精神
如果一个人有大爱
他绝对没有时间去搞emo
他也绝对没时间去毁谤别人
因为他知道
如果世界上每个人都在为自己着想
那么很多的生命都会被浪费掉
为什么要浪费自己的生命？
做d有意义有价值的事情
就不会容易陷入负面的自己。

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道 脈 源 流

自伏羲見龍馬負圖，創造八卦，揭開天地奧秘，是為大道降世之始。伏羲為第一代道統祖師，其後聖聖相緒，神農為第二代， 第三代軒轅黃帝，第四代少昊，第五代顓頊，第六代帝嚳，第七代帝堯，第八代帝舜，第九代夏禹，第十代伊尹，第十一代商湯，第十二代姜尚，第十三代文王、武 王、周公，第十四代老子，第十五代孔子，第十六代顏子、曾子，第十七代子思，第十八代孟子，是為東方十八代。孟子以後，道脈西遷，心法失傳，儒道道脈泯 滅，究未得繼續道統，良以孔子時，業經盤轉西域，釋門接衍，釋迦牟尼得道後，真法傳大弟子摩訶迦葉為禪宗初祖，單傳至二十八代達摩尊者。梁武帝時，達摩西 來中土，真機妙法，復還於中國，是謂「老水還潮」。自達摩入中國，真道乃一脈相傳，達摩為初祖，單傳給神光二祖，三祖僧燦，四祖道信，五祖弘忍，六祖惠 能。六祖之後衣缽不傳，道降火宅，白馬續為七祖，羅尉群繼任八祖。羅八祖歸後，道根秘隱公案，道統懸虛八百載。其間雖無天命祖師接衍道統，惟自宋代融合 儒、佛、道三家的理學及倡導「三教合一」的全真教驟然興起。降及明代又產生了一種以「無生老母」及「龍華三會」為主要教義之新興三教合一俗家教團。雖然全 真教及部分新興宗教如黃天道、夏教等，具有龐大教勢，且信徒遍佈各地，奈因天時未至，所傳多為枝葉，根本心印大法或失傳或瞬即止傳，故亦未續天命之祖派。 然彼等卻為大道之經義策論，做了薪傳的工作，大道之奧旨得賴以昌明。



　　迨至清順治年間，天時已至，元始天尊化身之 黃德輝在江西廬山，受天命，遙接羅八祖，緒為第九代祖。黃九祖融匯天命心法及新舊宗教思想，以儒佛道「三教合一」（註一）及全真教「修煉金丹」（註二）教 義為精髓，新興宗教之「無生老母」（註三）及「龍華三會」（註四）教義為佐義，正式開創先天道。故，皇極金丹寶卷云：「金丹大道最為奇，元始臨凡墜玉梯； 真機默演無為理，九玄泄漏造皇極」，又云：「西天四七傳燈轉，東土三三立教門」。黃九祖以前為「接緒道統」，祖派、道脈在儒佛道三教，大道係教門中之真 傳，在三教中遞傳。自黃九祖以降，係屬「開創道統」，乃為因應三期末劫、原人返本還原，所特設之授有無上法、專辦普度收圓道門，而為大道教團結社之開端。



　　黃九祖掌道後，歷經數十年之風霜，開荒闡化江西饒州府等地，門風曾鼎盛一時，門徒分成八卦九宮，惟自康熙二十九年 （一六九０）歸西後，其教漸呈式微之態勢。半世紀後，至乾隆年間，吳紫祥始出，在有緣寺受命為第十代祖，闡化廣信府，重振先天道脈。迄乾隆四十九年（一七 八四）了道後，何若再繼續為第十一祖，續開道洪都（南昌）、鄱陽一帶。嘉慶初年，何十一祖遭風考，充軍貴州龍里縣，大道始入黔省。嘉慶七年（一八０二）， 袁志謙續任十二祖，至十五年（一八一０），由黔省入滇省，自此道開雲南。



　　道光三年（一八二三），袁祖自雲南開道 四川，在成都設立西乾堂，以此為中心，積極向各地開展道務。此後人才輩出，尹正、黃謙、楊守一、劉曰湖及方運泓續闡四川；陳玉賢、安依成、宋土道等開道兩 湖；滇黔方面在嘉慶年間已有楊二姑、夏致溫之經營，道光後續有冰清等之調度；三江（江蘇、安徽）則有李六合之籌辦；福建則屬李道生等。彼等均為一時之俊 彥，先天道隨其足跡所至，漸風行大江南北。



　　道光（一八二六），楊守一、徐吉南繼任第十三代祖，至道光八年（一八 二八）了道歸西，袁十二祖復出視事，惟以年邁難於任事，交地任陳彬代理，三年後陳彬遭風考充軍，袁祖無奈復出掌盤，稱退安老人。道光十四年（一八三四）， 袁祖歸西，續由五行掌道。道光二十三年癸卯（一八四三）先天道場遭受大風考，至道光二十五年（一八四五）乙己，火行陳依精、木行安依成、土行宋土道在湖北 漢陽捨身了道，道場岌岌可危。風雨飄搖之際，幸賴十地彭德源（依法）臨危受命，晉任水行，出掌道盤。彭水祖掌道，重建道場，制定條規，嚴立佛綱，數年之 後，頹廢之道場，乃再度復甦。咸豐八年（一八五八）十二月，水祖歸西，金秘祖（林芳華）接續之。金秘祖才高心細，仗義輸財，以普渡為心，以收圓為念，先天 道大宏開，蓬勃景象再現。同治十二年（一八七三）金秘祖歸西，歸前將道盤交付素玉、素陽掌理，並曉諭西乾堂弟子嗣後「稱師不稱祖」，自此西乾道脈移轉。良 以道光年間，　老已將十四代祖位秘授山西姚鶴天接掌，至同治十三年（一八七四）姚祖始歸。



　　光緒三年（一八七 七），　老降臨山東青州東震堂，令王覺一繼任十五代祖。王祖掌道後，奉命以儒教來闡揚先天道義，廢除了入道時「茹素」、「絕欲」之規定，以較高層次的「理 天法」取代「氣天法」，將先天道之「指出玄關」，改為「點開玄關」，又廢除了黃九祖開道以來所創的「九節內功」，不再修煉金丹，只教人格物致知、涵養心 性，使天道之修持，由全真化轉趨儒教化。迄光緒十年（一八八四）王祖歸空時，其道已傳遍大江南北，其後由十六祖劉清虛接掌道盤。光緒三十一年（一九０ 五），續由路中一掌道，稱十七代祖。民國十四年（一九二五）路祖歸空，由其妹路師姑太代掌道盤。至民國十九年（一九三０），始由張天然繼任十八代祖，辦理 末後一著三曹普渡。民國三十六年（一九四七），張祖歸空，續由孫慧明掌理道盤，辦理收圓大任。民國四十三年（一九五四）由香港遷居台灣。民國六十四年（一 九七五）農曆二月二十三日歸空於台北市，享年八十一歲。歸後，　老封中華聖母。

it's been a while since my last image post. 'm happy to share some of my recent pictures here, after procrastinate for some times.

the afternoon was just so pretty with clouds

does it look like a scene in movie?
behind the gate is our medical college.

it's not gloomy~

i've removed li gu from here!

on the brigade road

li gu with the Rs647 breakfast

乌龟车fat! =.=

an english guy who helped us to take this pic, so blur!

cheers~

sh*t i shouldn't have deleted my last post just now. just worried that it'd be too creepy to be read later.. wat's wrong to be emo right? quite agree with wat wan sim said in kak's comment, emo-ing is also good at sometime coz u'll get back on track after tat.

i really dunno how to answer when shien juin asked me how come my last post was so moody but couldn't even find it on my face. maybe there's rarely no reason for being moody?

well, don worry too much guys. i'm fine!

:D

WHAT CAN ATTEST THE VALIDITY OF TAO

found this article via wikipedia this afternoon after shien juin told me that yew jhin is interested in finding out wat's I-Kuan Tao. i found it very difficult to explain in english.. nevertheless, luckily there was this website written in english n all about I-Kuan Tao. i really hope that my frens will understand wat is it about, in spite of misunderstanding it as a cult.

Tao, due to its completeness and generality, regulates the totality if all beings. Many people, after receiving Tao, with their wisdom, faith, and devotion, realize that Tao is the fundamental principle that governs all things. They comprehend the truth of the universe not only through literature, but also through daily living and nature. Their faith in Tao becomes strengthened and they move forward in their spiritual life. However, for people who haven't or just received Tao, Tao can be confirmed through revelations.

A. Anyone who has received Tao with the front door opened shall die peacefully. One proof of this is that for those who have receive Tao and died, their bodies remained soft and their faces vivid. Since the soul leaves the body through the correct exit, the corpse can actually remain uncorroded for a few days. With the most advanced modern science and technology, it is still difficult to explain this phenomenon. However, it is a FACT that cannot be denied. This has happened before in some religions, but very rarely. For people who have received Tao, this kind of testimony is ubiquitous, unless they have committed serious sins and corrupts their own mind. This can prove the soul has reached an ultimate harmony.
B. Being the superintendent of the things on earth, human beings are nonetheless weak. Since birth, we are subject to unpredictable accidents and natural disasters. There have been many people who encountered danger, used the Three Treasures with faith, and got away from the danger or reduced the damage to the minimum. Testimonies of this kind are numerous.
The above two mentioned are rarely heard of and difficult to believe, but they are the immediate security given by God once a person has received Tao. Thereafter, with each individual's faith, wisdom, and the accumulation of good deeds, one will come to know the truth more and more. It's up to you to experience the value of this treasure. I hope you will have the opportunity to receive Tao, experience it in your life, achieve ultimate perfection, and realize eternity.

here's more bout I-Kuan Tao in wikipedia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yiguandao#Practices

知错

为什么长这么大还要被骂。

因为明知故犯，因为不守规矩，才会被批评。

明明人家讲热汤热水不能直接倒进种植花草的泥土里，但是我偏偏贪方便在akha的面前做出这样的丑事。结果被讲了一下，心里是很不爽，也很不甘愿的那种。然而我的真人告诉我，我真的做错事了，如果我不认错我只会变得更幼稚，更可恶，更没有道德的一只迷途羔羊。

这件事警惕了我，必须时时反省，感恩，守矩。

犯错之后常常觉得自己是个坏人，更让自己讨厌的是为什么别人总认为我是个善良的人，而自己却很清楚知道其实自己的心是多么的黑暗。那种扮好人的假人，跟鬼有什么两样。我是臭鬼。。鬼鬼鬼！！！

我下定决心，一定要成为一个实实在在的好人，不许作出一些伤害自己良心(真人)的事。

写完了，心也安了。

death = eternity

i received a msg from siew meei when i was studying with shien juin yesterday afternoon. in the msg, it's written like this, "敬慈, 国瑛走了.." at first i thought she's leaving for somewhere to further her studies but the msg was too short n creepy. i didn't have the good feeling about it, thus i made a call to siew meei.

kok ying just passed away in that afternoon.

i couldn't accept the fact, how could she die.. she's LAI KOK YING!!!!!!!!! she was so healthy, she was so optimistic, she was so playful, she was so smart..... how could it be.

how much i wish i could fly back to msia now. 'm deeply regret that i never pay a visit to her during last holiday in kk.

i miss her laughes, the way she talked, how she treasured her frens.. my heart scattered into pieces.. i lost another fren. this is the real one. she's no more in this world. together buried with her voice.

i couldn't stop imaging things that might be happened in a sudden, without my knowledge. i'm in pessimism again..(pls slap me) i should have reminded myself that life is...full of unexpectations.

maybe...
the next minute...

i'll fall down with my soup?
i'll be hit by a car?
i'll be stabbed by robber?

maybe...
the next 3 years...

i find myself having anaemia?
i'll be diagnosed that i have hepatitis?
i burn myself in the kitchen?
my nerves get paralyzed?

stupid. well, i prefer i'm the one who get injured or even die b4 any others. coz i'm too selfish.

actually i should be glad that god has brought her spirit back to where she came from right.. that's wat i should think about in spite. fortunately she got the pathway how her spirit should go, otherwise i'll feel guilty very much.

wat's the eternity one? i'd call it the soul. human body is just like a shell, that helps us physically in everything, from crawling until walking until running. but it always comes to an end when the body gets infected, travailed or degraded. the only eternity one will never die, it will go back to the place where it came from if we know where it enters on our body. that's the secret which god is wishing to tell us. i wish i could let more of my frens to know bout this, so that they will know where n how their spirits to be returned to god. it's kinda hard to convince especially ppl from different religions. the eternity one... who could understand? nobody wanna understand.